Saturday, September 20, 2008
Silent outbreak
It has been quite some time since i stay home on a Saturday. Previously, i am out almost every weekend..This morning, i did abit of revising on 'Laws of Iterated Expectations'(LIE) and also on 'White Noises' .. Although i spent quite some time digesting the notes & textbook, i still am confused on the uses of LIE ... zzz..
In order not to waste my time staring at the screen, i did alittle read up for the topic of Time Value of Money... & watched 'Ripley Believe it or not' on tv & .. .do abit of read up for my Final Theory...
Just now i was feeling very blue after dinner.. so i decided to let go of my emotions by SINGING... Haha.. i sang a number of songs ..& i felt better.. I guessed i have to let go of these negative emotions through some channels.. initially i wanted to go jogging .. but my left ankle is alittle painful..so i guessed i might have overexert on it...
Just now i was sitting on the sofa & i chatted with Dad on my progress for driving.. it has been quite some time we chatted much .. come to think of it, we hardly hold any conversation during weekdays except for the usual asking of whether i have eaten or have school...
Ydae i did one survey on the time spent on various activities each day.. & i realised beside sleeping which took about avg 56 hours per WEEK, i spend another 45 hrs on average 'surfing net' or staring at the screen or doing my bo liao stuff... & for family time..i only spent like 11 hrs (that is if we sit down & watch the telly together)
Today, as i sat beside mom while she was having her tea break, i realised how much she has grown older.. The skin has lost the elasticity & dark spots are forming..Come to think of it, i am always not at home, & when she does not work on Saturday, she will mostly stay home & do the housework.. & face the empty house.. while i go out & have 'fun' ... I guessed i better balance my time by spending more time with the family .. It's kindof true that we tend to take the closest people in our life for granted that they will always be there... i always go out to seek for the warmth ..but neglected the family warmth... i think i really should do something about myself..
In the process .. i foresee some things may change.. although i do miss the past.. but.. i supposed... life's never stagnant... &... the past will be wonderful memories for me... if chances permit, i will walk through the process again... but this time round with a 'newer' me ...
This few weeks, i have so many thoughts floating in my head & i can hardly sleep well.. it is time i take control of my life with the Guidance from Him.. There are so much to speak, yet when its time for me to speak,nothing comes out... this is what i call the silent communication...
In order not to waste my time staring at the screen, i did alittle read up for the topic of Time Value of Money... & watched 'Ripley Believe it or not' on tv & .. .do abit of read up for my Final Theory...
Just now i was feeling very blue after dinner.. so i decided to let go of my emotions by SINGING... Haha.. i sang a number of songs ..& i felt better.. I guessed i have to let go of these negative emotions through some channels.. initially i wanted to go jogging .. but my left ankle is alittle painful..so i guessed i might have overexert on it...
Just now i was sitting on the sofa & i chatted with Dad on my progress for driving.. it has been quite some time we chatted much .. come to think of it, we hardly hold any conversation during weekdays except for the usual asking of whether i have eaten or have school...
Ydae i did one survey on the time spent on various activities each day.. & i realised beside sleeping which took about avg 56 hours per WEEK, i spend another 45 hrs on average 'surfing net' or staring at the screen or doing my bo liao stuff... & for family time..i only spent like 11 hrs (that is if we sit down & watch the telly together)
Today, as i sat beside mom while she was having her tea break, i realised how much she has grown older.. The skin has lost the elasticity & dark spots are forming..Come to think of it, i am always not at home, & when she does not work on Saturday, she will mostly stay home & do the housework.. & face the empty house.. while i go out & have 'fun' ... I guessed i better balance my time by spending more time with the family .. It's kindof true that we tend to take the closest people in our life for granted that they will always be there... i always go out to seek for the warmth ..but neglected the family warmth... i think i really should do something about myself..
In the process .. i foresee some things may change.. although i do miss the past.. but.. i supposed... life's never stagnant... &... the past will be wonderful memories for me... if chances permit, i will walk through the process again... but this time round with a 'newer' me ...
This few weeks, i have so many thoughts floating in my head & i can hardly sleep well.. it is time i take control of my life with the Guidance from Him.. There are so much to speak, yet when its time for me to speak,nothing comes out... this is what i call the silent communication...
# posted by ch3mysTery : 8:56 PM
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