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Remember my past entry?That day i was in a wreck.. i couldnt sleep as there are so many thoughts in me that i thot i am pretty dumb for this world...in the end,i broke down & keep praying .... till i fell asleep perhaps at 3+am ...

Ydae Sermon was good. I feel the whole sermon is talking to me.. There are many times i just feel like giving up on certain things since i have contradicting thoughts, and its hard to deal with them because they made you struggle so much...

but i realised all these battles are for me to develop my character.. if i perserve & win the battle, my character will be developed to be stronger.. The battles are there to help in my character building...

Ydae i had a good rest & today i feel my thoughts are just 'clear' & not clouded with 'mist' LOL...its really a different kind of feeling i had 2 days back... & its hard to describe in words.. .

Many a time, when my thoughts are being attacked, bitterness,anger or anguish may come into me... then my thoughts will slowly manipulate my actions & behavior..its scary for me to even think of it while typing this...It is then your heart will slowly turn cold...

At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. Because of the increase in wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but he who stands firm to the end willl be saved

Matthew 24: 10-13

it seemed so easy for a heart to turn cold.. So be very alert not to allow it to turn cold!!

I thank the Lord for working in me these few days as i seek for Him.. The remedy may not be instant, it takes a process.. i realised i need to work even harder to protect my thoughts from being attacked..

Alright, i shall end here... need to do abit of reading up for my lecture later. Remember keep praying till you see something... it takes a process... :)