Monday, May 26, 2008
Renew
Last night my mood has been escalating up & down like a rollercoaster ride. I know deep inside i am not feeling very good... & so i prayed & prayed hoping that all the negative thoughts & emotions will go away...
I decided to catch the Sichuan 's Earthquake charity show which was on tv, the show somehow triggers my emotions and i broke down uncontrollably throughout the whole show. It is the feeling of brokeness in the spirit...The eyes were tired after the show, but the mind is so awake at night. I managed to woke up at 0600 to continue on my revision since the rest of the day beginning from noon i have something on.
Initially my mood was sortof being on the neutral side,by being neutral, you know there is a tendency to sway ...so its really a thin line between positive & negative. I decided then listen to songs of worship while revising.. I dont know how to explain but as time goes by... my mood got lighter.. & my mind is diverted to positive thoughts & i feel good inside..and i managed to progess with my revision. :)
I realised that what i have encountered is what the verse says
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken & contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise
Psalm 51:17
Now,what does contrite means?
To be bowed down with the awareness of our spiritual bankruptcy.
That our inner spirit is crushed with a sense of its guilt.
That we have a genuine and deep sorrow for our rebellion against God and a determined desire to do differently.
reference from http://www.carm.org/sermons/Psalm_51.htm
By being broken & contrite, i submit myself into the hands of the Lord. The prayers that i had is being answered, and i thank Him for the never ending love for me even as i fail him along the way as i falter in my ways.
What i would want to highlight here is that, never never underestimate the power of prayers... Keep praying till you see something happens.
Glad to say I have ended my rollercoaster ride...
Side track, later will be singing Ktv with 35026 ... hehe..long time nv sing ktv lieo.. hope the day goes & ends well... Hope i will be very tired tonight so that i can have a good sleep and continue to charge forward for my last paper on Wednesday.
=D
With this, i'll end here. God bless your day!
I decided to catch the Sichuan 's Earthquake charity show which was on tv, the show somehow triggers my emotions and i broke down uncontrollably throughout the whole show. It is the feeling of brokeness in the spirit...The eyes were tired after the show, but the mind is so awake at night. I managed to woke up at 0600 to continue on my revision since the rest of the day beginning from noon i have something on.
Initially my mood was sortof being on the neutral side,by being neutral, you know there is a tendency to sway ...so its really a thin line between positive & negative. I decided then listen to songs of worship while revising.. I dont know how to explain but as time goes by... my mood got lighter.. & my mind is diverted to positive thoughts & i feel good inside..and i managed to progess with my revision. :)
I realised that what i have encountered is what the verse says
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken & contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise
Psalm 51:17
Now,what does contrite means?
To be bowed down with the awareness of our spiritual bankruptcy.
That our inner spirit is crushed with a sense of its guilt.
That we have a genuine and deep sorrow for our rebellion against God and a determined desire to do differently.
reference from http://www.carm.org/sermons/Psalm_51.htm
By being broken & contrite, i submit myself into the hands of the Lord. The prayers that i had is being answered, and i thank Him for the never ending love for me even as i fail him along the way as i falter in my ways.
What i would want to highlight here is that, never never underestimate the power of prayers... Keep praying till you see something happens.
Glad to say I have ended my rollercoaster ride...
Side track, later will be singing Ktv with 35026 ... hehe..long time nv sing ktv lieo.. hope the day goes & ends well... Hope i will be very tired tonight so that i can have a good sleep and continue to charge forward for my last paper on Wednesday.
=D
With this, i'll end here. God bless your day!
# posted by ch3mysTery : 11:38 AM
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