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Hello.. last evening my mood was quite bad.. i felt anguish in me...& i felt lethargic throughout the whole evening.. now i know even better for myself that soaking myself in negative feelings are draining for the body...I said my prayers to counter battle my emotions which i felt i have no control over for last night... it didnt work immediately but this morning when i got up, i thought i have things sorted out... I thank God for His grace and his guidance whenever i seek his presence.

I've got some rough plans of what i wish to do after my last paper this coming Wednesday.

- Go Kinokuniya to read whatever books they have there (Preferably on "Go")
- Get a job
- Strive to be more independent & 果断
- Learn some new skills (playing of "GO"/musical instruments)
- Read up materials for next semester
- Pick up momentum in exercising
- Learn how to play at Vivawa (signed up but yet to play)

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I've bought myself a set of "GO" but yet to play, need to read up more then i can find someone to play with or even play it online. :)

There's this ending theme in Hikaru no Go, the song is in Jap, but there's english translation to it. I find the lyrics motivating .....

These feelings I want to tell you
Are spilling out right now
But im hesitating not knowing how to put it into words
So many seasons passed by since we met
I miss that time we stayed up all night talking
As I walk towards my dreams
I learn what vanity is
Let’s start each of
Our departure here
Im not like I was before
I wont give up anymore, I’ll keep on walking
No matter what the future is
So that I can become stronger

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I wish to see changes in me... i need to grow.... grow out of my shelf