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i am finding the entries getting monotonous,but right now i have not much idea what else to blog on... Not much activities going on for me to blog.... Anyway, just to share this song with you, its by Paul Young - Everytime you go away. Aint sure if you heard this song before, you can listen to it if you want.Dont judge the music video, listen!! :)



By the way,i think i know what it means to be a perfectionist in my context. To me, it would mean always trying to make sure you 'do enough or more than enough' for something & yet feel like you are not doing enough. The more you do, the 'insufficiency' vacumm remains & i wonder when would it be filled? Sometimes, things really leave me dumbfounded..

I am grateful that at this point of time, i understand that my priority will be on my studies but sometimes i am overwhelmed and i need people to remind me that studies is not everything. Once, i was pondering over why some individual play so hard & have all the fun in the world, while i am almost stagnant in life's leisure. It makes me feel i am a boring person whose life revolves just around studies and little leisure.

Sometimes, i ask God if things are working according to his plan. Soon, i realised that all things happen for a purpose & i need not question God about his plan for me. This is not to say i heck care about my life, but that i do what is required of me & leave the rest to Him. Sounds simple isnt it? How often do we leave everything to Him in the 1st place? We always try to take charge of our own life & try to live the kind of life we desire. We only seek him when things go out of hand.

In fact, i was touched by the lyrics of this song as posted by Darren in his blog.

All things work for our good
though sometimes we can’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what’s best for us;
His ways are not our own.
So, when your pathway grows dim,
and you just can’t see Him,
Remember you are not alone.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

He sees the Master plan.
He holds the future in His hands.
So don’t live as those who have no hope.
All our hope is found in Him.
We walk in present knowledge,
but He sees the first and the last.
And like a tapestry, He’s weaving you and me
to someday be just like Him.

God is too wise to be mistaken.
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
when you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand, trust His heart.

http://richardmtan.multiply.com/music/item/25


When i was sick last week, i have many negative thoughts in my head.Why was i ill out of the blue? What did i do wrong? However, i learnt something from the trial period which might not be significant to you. That is,

....i can plan everything that i want. The plan may be flawless & looks really good. But when circumstances change, plans changed. It just takes a change in the surroundings to spoil the entire plan. So why plan you ask me? Its not that we should not plan at all since plans are subjected to changes, but the point is

we learnt that things dont always work according to your OWN planning.I trust that whatever happened is a reminder for me, to trust Him & not always take things in my own hands.

There! I told you i need reminders...