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GD morning peeps! Its 0727 now... woke up not too long ago... gonna start working again today (@ another company)...supposed to work @ 9am..but was told to come at 1pm for today ...at least i have things to keep me busy with ...you wont want to know how i spent my past week ... i can tell you the feeling sucks..it really really does...

everyday i wake up..feeling just emptiness in me...& nothing else..i started to think about those days where i started to OT ... the tiredness in me took away all my energy and i have to carry on working...with the boost coming from coffee... the umpteen times of "lunch-in" i had in the office ... not forgetting the countless times of lunch out with the colleagues @ my favourite eateries...although initially i really felt i had "no life" in my previous job ..cox my only free time is during my weekends..(although sometimes i went back for work too) ... but in the end.. things became better & we were all able to be more relaxed ...although still have to work OT la..much more were built up over these months.. the friendships...the team spirit... knowledge learnt ...the guidances they gave to a young adult like me..i couldnt use words to just describe what has happened these months... but im glad those people are part of my life... i dont know about them.. but i really do miss them alot..

i dont wish to keep thinking of the past ...perhaps i was really too bored last week... i couldnt sleep well the whole week...cox i dont feel tired @ all... in the past.. normally i'll worked till average 10pm ...the moment i reached home..i would be exhausted...and also to think of the next few hours i gotta wake up again for work..those hours became very precious..& i fell asleep very soon..

i have quite a number of peeps asking me why did i stay on the job for so long.. frankly speaking..during the toughest period between oct-dec ...i was on the verge of giving up.. i told myself that after Dec ends.. i would want to find another job that gives me "life". Life in this context refers to the free time after work ....the time to watch tv...the time to go online..the time to sleep.... but soon.. those OT nights became a routine and i grew used to it...

anyway...my new workplace is still somewhere near the old workplace..hehe..just about 7-10 mins walk ba... hope to meet up with the peeps for lunch in future.. that's a consolation ya... hmm...last week when the person in charge called me up ...i was elated...cox i've gotten a job and also its near the old workplace.. but later on..i felt a sense of "dreadness" in me.. i gotta start anew again @ this foreign place... guess its normal bah...

alright...shall end here... hope the day goes well ...