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haiz...as u peeps noe..im still waiting for the "2nd letter" that is if i've got through the assessment which i went 2 weeks back... my days are pretty boring...i either go for a jog..or to read books @ home...& i've practically nth much to do... & perhaps the useful thing i've done for myself will be that i went for exercises & also to read up the forums for more news & knowledge...

can life be more happening den this?? ppl do not noe the loneliness i feel sometimes when i wake up to face the empty house alone... i do not hav a specific target to work towards to...

sometimes..it feels so hard to make decision for myself... i dont noe where my decision will lead me to...im getting nowhere for the time being... & i really feel kindof hopeless...everyone around seems to be doing something productive...but im stoning my life away @ this point of time..how much longer should i wait? 1 month? or 2 months? By then..i wud hav been graduated for 0.5 yr already..& still getting nowhere?

im quite sick of my answers to the peeps when they asked how i am doing/wad am i doing... im not blaming the peeps here..i juz feel my answers r sucky.
me: "oh..im waiting for my letter..."
xx: "wad letter?"
me: "orh...blah blah blah"

sorry for being whiny...but i really hope to be more productive ma...lol...