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u noe...i had been backspacing a few times...was typing my anguish about a matter..but i've decided not to blow up the matter... but im still feeling..somewhat unhappy about how the matter is being handled...somehow...i feel *they didnt ask for any opinions & took things in their hands... & the outcome is that i was told to share wadeva cost with dem... it just doesnt sound right to me ya...

u dun go around doing what u deemed fit & expect the others to oblige with ur doings.. i dont mean to sound as if im all RIGHT but .. somehow... ur way of management is abit not up to standard?? I dont say that im GOOD in management .. but at least..i noe the courtesy of asking for opinions .. .Not everyone is that easy-going ...perhaps the peeps u met in ur life are all easy-going..& i am not .. .

in the past... i may oblige & foolishly agree to everything that people throws into my face... try to give & take?? i dont wish to make the tension between all of us heightened.. but how else can we solve this problem if we didnt talk things out clearly... just let it be ....? Of coz it can happen this way ... but sorry to say...when im bitten once..im not goin to get myself bitten again...perhaps i should have just stay with the old clique ...at least i feel im part of them...

this matter really irritates the hell out of me...for so long in my life..i've never encounter such a thing .. .perhaps i've never seen enough of the world out there ba... perhaps u peeps who dunoe the full account of wad has happened would be tinking why am i bitching so much todae.. so much to say about the whole thing.. but i thot i better stop talkin about it..it really spoils my mood & made my heart beats faster ...

dad says the other party has their own faults..but not to say i do not hav any fault..my fault would be that i didnt ask properly about all the details... he also mentioned that in the future.. the other party may stop including me in their affairs..& so will i distance myself . .. perhaps wad he said is true..but i really dun mind ..... im not losin anything anyway...

this event made me realised that how different ways of handling stuff have got different outcomes... we have our own way of thinkings & for all to agree unanimously is quite a difficult task ..

sometimes.. u just feel like being peaceful with everyone around u ... but the people around u dont seem to make u peaceful at all ...what should u do then? Easy...Walk away from them..& u'll feel peaceful. . .

i didnt expect something like that to bother me so much .. anyway... i'll stop here..b4 i get too naggy.... still feeling abit weird in the heart . .


*i dont need too many frens around me ...