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Good morning... its 0713 now... woke up by hearing "Bu Zhuo Ni De Peng You" ... mom was listening to the radio as usual... didnt know why i got up so early today... before 0630 that is ... maybe for the past 2 weeks..i slept too much.. its payback time..haha...yeah... got up & found mom sitting in the kitchen eating her breakfast ... i dont know why..but suddenly i thot i felt quite abit of emotions running in me... i imagined what would life be w/o her by my side.. although i always tease her & "bully" her..she means alot to me ... not forgetting dad..although he dun talk much.. i noe he cares for me for he never fails to get me breakfast (as he noes that im too lazy to eat sometimes)

hmm... i dont know when i can provide a better life for both of them.. mom advised me to work in big companies rather than small companies.. yeah..the norm thinking... sometimes..it really makes me wonder whether i've overestimated my abilities .. i dont know..it takes some time & experience to find out..just like i thot i could be a forensic scientist ... yeah..& u discover that some things in life you can dream & hope for.. but it may not always be fulfilled...

Often..when we dream about some thing in life...we procrastinated for too long.. maybe...for once..the chance was there...right there...but when you missed it ... its forever gone... & we tell ourselves.."what to do? Resign to fate ba... i was never given a chance ...so i can only just dream about it" its politically right to always say " cherish every opportunities that knock on your door"..we read it somewhere in the papers..books...essays...although we all noe this in our head.. sometimes.. we get too muddlehead in life that somebody has to remind us that there's really an opportunity ahead of us.. i am sure everyone has at least someone there to push you when your stuck in life ... & let's be thankful for that "someone" in life.. that "someone" could have spend his/her time doing even more interesting stuff den minding your affairs...

hm...yeah..so i wanna thank peng for leaving a testimonial .. it was a nice one...really.. & i hope you'll stay happy too... have an enjoyable trip ya!

sometimes,i think too much .. i think about what life would be if i didnt enter your life.. would you be even happier..would you even achieve more ? im so scared to hinder your life... till a point.. i thot of just walking out of your life .. all these were only my own perspectives.. & when i get too carried away thinking of the "what-ifs & what-not" ... my mood got worst ..

perhaps..right now..i should have practice what i've learnt... that is to "cherish the present" i dont wanna waste 1 more day ...i may forget what i typed today ... but i'll make the effort to at least cherish the present..once its gone...we can never turn back..it becomes the past...the present only exists for 24 hours ... & soon.. it becomes part of history...& when things get too far behind... our memories do get blurry.. & u 'll forget what's the feelings you have at that point of time...

yep.. shall end here..its rather a long entry..hope the one reading this...

Have a nice day!