Friday, September 16, 2005
thestat
well...we didnt go jog in the end...we went to watch the training for taekwondo...its only todae that i started to consider more of the future....hmm....the fact im left with 1 more sem to go b4 i graduate.... made me decide that in order to further my studies...i have to work full-time so that i can earn my school fees...i heard it tough to work full-time & study part-time...it requires alot of discipline on ur own...this part..im afraid i am lacking it..
hmm...alrite..i noe i hav been harping about learning taekwondo in my previous entries...rite now...it seemed like even if i join the club...i hav to manage my time for work,studies & play...it all leads down to time management....ok...maybe im too 3 mins hot degrees le....as kl had said..i put her aeroplane when we agreed to take up guitar last time...& i was the one dropping halfway thru.... now...i have not even started the training...& i told her i dun feel like joining le....well...b4 we part our way...i was still considering whether to join..i felt i was quite mean lah...told her that i wanna join...my enthusiasm & everything....now that she has agreed to join with me...i decided to quit....haiz...the coach was saying "ask u join tis..u sae no time...ask u join taichi..u sae lao ren...better go home & slp lah" LOL....sad to sae...i felt abit affected by wad he said...but i have my fickle-mindedness to blame la...
when i got home....i was realli confused...
"should i go for the trials & den drop out after a few times, at least i tried... & i could save my face"
"maybe i join le..i realli like it leh..."
"how far can i go leh...@ this age...although nth is impossible la,but when the time comes when i work full-time...maybe i will be force to drop ?"
"why am i so fickle-minded???? How do i solve this problem sia..."
hmm...kl...i hope ur not going to blame me for being so fickle-minded..im sorry...but after planning for my "future" (i noe i shud hav consider this when i was still having my ATP..but it didnt come across my mind ... ) i thot even if i reali do join...it wun be long before i leave....hope ur not going to stay mad @ me.... we r still frens rite? Pls pardon me for my FICKLE-MINDEDNESS.... realii sorrie about it.... =(
*im always hoping to excel in something..but the thing i nid to excel in is to be more firm in my decisions...*
hmm...alrite..i noe i hav been harping about learning taekwondo in my previous entries...rite now...it seemed like even if i join the club...i hav to manage my time for work,studies & play...it all leads down to time management....ok...maybe im too 3 mins hot degrees le....as kl had said..i put her aeroplane when we agreed to take up guitar last time...& i was the one dropping halfway thru.... now...i have not even started the training...& i told her i dun feel like joining le....well...b4 we part our way...i was still considering whether to join..i felt i was quite mean lah...told her that i wanna join...my enthusiasm & everything....now that she has agreed to join with me...i decided to quit....haiz...the coach was saying "ask u join tis..u sae no time...ask u join taichi..u sae lao ren...better go home & slp lah" LOL....sad to sae...i felt abit affected by wad he said...but i have my fickle-mindedness to blame la...
when i got home....i was realli confused...
"should i go for the trials & den drop out after a few times, at least i tried... & i could save my face"
"maybe i join le..i realli like it leh..."
"how far can i go leh...@ this age...although nth is impossible la,but when the time comes when i work full-time...maybe i will be force to drop ?"
"why am i so fickle-minded???? How do i solve this problem sia..."
hmm...kl...i hope ur not going to blame me for being so fickle-minded..im sorry...but after planning for my "future" (i noe i shud hav consider this when i was still having my ATP..but it didnt come across my mind ... ) i thot even if i reali do join...it wun be long before i leave....hope ur not going to stay mad @ me.... we r still frens rite? Pls pardon me for my FICKLE-MINDEDNESS.... realii sorrie about it.... =(
*im always hoping to excel in something..but the thing i nid to excel in is to be more firm in my decisions...*
# posted by ch3mysTery : 10:10 PM
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