Saturday, September 17, 2005
nuts
hello blog... i tink im getting my emotions slammed upside down ,left and right...hmm...recently..i found myself to be especially comfortable to being alone... alrite..put the office visit thing aside...that dun count..haha...yeah....maybe its time for me to do some soul-thinking....it has been so long since i put my heart into my prayers....im reminded to pray every night becoz it somehow became a habit to do so?Gosh.... wad's becoming of me.... & lately...i found my thoughts revolved all around "me" ? The head is getting big....i need to put it a fullstop to it...& im lacking of the patience to talk to people around me.... i juz didnt feel like talking....Arghhh....
hopefully...during this period..i didnt piss off many of the peeps around me...if i do..im really sorry about it....
tmr,Bernard's going China le....yep..will be going down with the few of dem to see him off..hope he has a safe journey & that his attachment will be fruitful!
hmm....i have this problem all the while....& t-i-m-e is the accomplice!! whenever i get along with some people for some time...i will develop some kindof "bond" with dem....& when that "bond" is built up...& i had to leave ....i feel so terrible inside...oh my....i noe nothing ever lasts forever...but i guess this thot never had a place in my heart...coz till now...i still cant accept it....or maybe..it has etched on my memory ....that's why im reminded of the "loss" whenever its time for us to move on.....
true that in life...we will meet many peopple....& some people are juz hi-bye peeps...some will stay with u till u age...but for many cases of mine....i dun wish for hi-bye...can we? time can build up "bond" among people..& yet....time itself can caused memories to be gently erased ..... gently as when time passes by...we will take lesser notice of the once surrounding we r in...& with a new environment & such.... soon...u'll accept that "ah,that was the past...." so many times...i wish so much to tell the "people" i met along my life that they meant alot to me...how i wish..there wasnt any situations whereby the "bond" has to be slowly disintegrated..but cruel as the reality is....such things happen all the while ....not only to me...i guessed it happens to you too...& such occurence really do bother me alot....
so much for being emotional.....im gone!
hopefully...during this period..i didnt piss off many of the peeps around me...if i do..im really sorry about it....
tmr,Bernard's going China le....yep..will be going down with the few of dem to see him off..hope he has a safe journey & that his attachment will be fruitful!
hmm....i have this problem all the while....& t-i-m-e is the accomplice!! whenever i get along with some people for some time...i will develop some kindof "bond" with dem....& when that "bond" is built up...& i had to leave ....i feel so terrible inside...oh my....i noe nothing ever lasts forever...but i guess this thot never had a place in my heart...coz till now...i still cant accept it....or maybe..it has etched on my memory ....that's why im reminded of the "loss" whenever its time for us to move on.....
true that in life...we will meet many peopple....& some people are juz hi-bye peeps...some will stay with u till u age...but for many cases of mine....i dun wish for hi-bye...can we? time can build up "bond" among people..& yet....time itself can caused memories to be gently erased ..... gently as when time passes by...we will take lesser notice of the once surrounding we r in...& with a new environment & such.... soon...u'll accept that "ah,that was the past...." so many times...i wish so much to tell the "people" i met along my life that they meant alot to me...how i wish..there wasnt any situations whereby the "bond" has to be slowly disintegrated..but cruel as the reality is....such things happen all the while ....not only to me...i guessed it happens to you too...& such occurence really do bother me alot....
so much for being emotional.....im gone!
# posted by ch3mysTery : 12:23 PM
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