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Ello...if u peeps r in a chirpy mood..den u are being warned not to read further..for the rest of this entry is titled a "blue entry"

i've been doubting myself lately...i mean wad kindof person am i,actually? In office,i appear to be smiley sometimes,are those smiles real or am i just faking it? Alrite,wait a minute,it aint about work that im depressed or maybe the right word to use is "sad" about....its the life im getting by...i dont know how to put them down in words...but i definitely dun feel good about it...there appears to be many people around me... they seemed to be in their own world,although i exist right infront of them...(somehow,i feel as thou im invisible)right,they do talk to u..but it doesnt seem real to me at all... at the end of the day...i searched myself...i found a hollowness inside..it isnt being filled by anthing..i dunoe wad do i want now by typing this entry..i just noe im hollow inside...nothing...right from the start....im nothing...till now..im still nothing....hmm...maybe im something- a pathetic nerd . hmm..you r right..

..everyone cares for demself at the very end...who the toot will reali care for u...yes...dey do care...to a certain extent...

somtimes,i realli do hope to go somewhere where its just me,myself&i...i can do anyting dat i want<---this sound abit childish..hmm... just walking home slowly...with ur fav songs running thru ur head...enjoying the breeze...glancing @ the people who walk past u in a speedy manner...is strangely enuff for me today....i tink now..the only thing im interested in...is reali to listen to the baby 's talk every now & den... a rather strange one..yeah..but that's the way i like it!